A few nights ago I went to see the movie Atonement.  I have tried not to see many movies since the break up as I am afraid to totally lose it in the movie theater.  I watched "Away From Her" last week and seriously had a breakdown several times in the privacy of my own home.  Therefore, going to see this movie was a big step in my STILL fragile state.  Keep in mind that I'm emotional on a good day and these last few months have made me hyper emotional.We get into the theater and the good news is that there was no one in the movie theater AT ALL but me and my friend. 

The dictionary states that the word ATONEMENT means "a reparation, amends, reconciliation, restoration of friendly relations."

I won't go into details about the movie but it a great movie.  I got out of the movie that your actions cause reactions in others.  Which cause them to act and thus causing reactions in others. Know what I mean---the EX cheated on me--causing me to kick him out--causing him to lose everything, lose the love of his life and struggle emotionally, financially and spiritually for a really long time to come and scaring him for life ( I really believe that ).  He not communicating to me (his action) causes me to be a little cou-cou, lose it mentally and seek out a Psychologist. Thus, causing a reaction in me that tells me that things will improve in time but I still think of him but try not to dwell on him.  Think of it and put it out of your mind.