I Leave You With This

"Maybe that's what it comes down to. Love, not a surge of passion but as a choice to commit to something, to someone, no matter what obstacles or temptations that stand in the way. And maybe making that choice, again and again, day in and day out, year after year--says more about love than never having a choice to make at all."

Emily Giffin from Love The One You're With

Do You Have A First Aid Kit Handy?

I was at the gym 2 days ago and this girL that I know only at the gym and by saying Hi to her came up to me while I was in the middle of a set and said--why do you look sad? I just said--I have a few things on my mind.

I didn't think that I was sad or that I looked sad but I am lately. Odd when a semi-stranger says that to you. The feelings of "what happens now" is in my mind. I think of the Ex, the current guy(s) that I have around me and enjoy the company and those who I met but are too far away to get to know well. The potential is there for me to be happy but I just can't seem to get there. Unresolved issues--perhaps--not having time to really...I mean really know...and think of what I want for myself and my future.

Frankly, I find it to scary to look at at this moment. I just don't want to go there as I feel that I need to resolve things from the past before I move on.

How long will it take?

Will they ever get resolved?

So How Am I Going To Fix It?

YEAH!!!

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BONNE FETE Bebe

Don't Tell Me Cause It Hurts

I'm off for the summer and well...I am looking forward to it but with that comes some time to reflect and I need that like I need a kick in the head.

I've decided to stop things that I don't really want to start, continue things that I like and want to pursue things that make me curious. I am going to be honest open and will try to spare people of their feelings as much as I can but my feelings are more important as I need to be happy. I vow to do things that make me uncomfortable and make me grow. I will do things that I want to do and not over think it. Also, suffer the consequences (hopefully all good) to my actions and try to forgive as I will never forget but forgive I can do.

Mainly, let go---just stop.

Presque Fini

'In my mind
Ive got it all figured out
But the head
Does not always rule the heart
And I try to place him
Out of body and soul
Just when I thought Id made it
His images start taking their toll
On me
I feel his memory haunting me
Time and Again
I feel weak because

[Chorus]
Every time I see your picture I cry
And I try to get over you
One more time because
Every time I see your picture I cry
Oh I cry

There you rest inside the walls
Of a flame
Hurts so bad
I can almost feel your eyes
Calling out my name and so
Out of body and soul
Youre everywhere I go
Illusion or reality I dont know
I feel your memory haunting me
Time and again
I feel weak because