Je Ne Vous Oublie Pas

Someone asked me today: "Do you feel you are starting to feel some closure in terms of the break-up and an ability to move on?" It was the first time that someone asked me something like that. I usually get--how are you doing? It got me really thinking today at the gym---as that is where I get to think (maybe too much)--that maybe I need to forgive the ex for what he did. Maybe that will help me move on faster and get closure. How do I do this? Well, that would require me to delete "The File". I don't really think of this file often but it would put closure on things. After this crazy week, maybe I will.

With my grandmother dying, it makes me think that life it too short--hence the New York trip. However, go with what your gut thinks and let things go because what is the point. At the end of it all, I want good, entertaining, dirty and funny stories to share with others in the old folks home (thanks NYC). Not ones about how I got screwed over and how heart broken I got. We all have these types of stories and they aren't fun.

Going back home is not really all that enjoyable and will make me pretty emotional but I have my trip to look forward to and seeing "NYC" will definitely help--I'm certain of that.

Ceci est pour toi Memere et Bé




This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mammas, daddys, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up some times
On Sunday mornings saying I miss you
But i'm glad we talked through
All them wrongful things seperation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
Theres so much more left so say
If you were with me today face to face

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3

Bye bye

And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
Am standing right here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mammas, daddys, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye, bye

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this (I never knew it)
And everyday life goes on like (everyday of my life I wish)
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile” (I wish)
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by (I wish, I wish as time goes by)
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Its hard to say bye bye bye bye bye bye
So come on somebody sing it with me
Wave your hands up high
Hey hey, this if for my peoples who just lost somebody
So this is for everybody
You put your hand to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye bye)