How Do You Block The Sound Of A Voice That You Would Know Anywhere

As you can tell or you may already know music is something that I link to memories. Almost every song I hear brings back a memory of some type. I heard Simon and Garfunkel's "The Boxer" in Starbuck today and it brought me back to High School and friends of mine named Derek and Martine. Good times back then and I love that song.

The Ex and I had over 5ooo songs on the Computer and went to over 10 excellent concerts together in the 3 years together and music was always a part of our life together. I try really hard not to have music on that reminds me of him and that is so hard because I easily relate things back to him and I try not to but I can't help it. That is why I can't wait until my favourite artists have new albums out and I can start making new memories.

At the gym, I only have about 30 songs on my Ipod and most of them have are linked to him but I can listen to about 25 of them and there are 5 I just torture myself with and usually end up in tears when I listen to them. I usually skip them but when I feel a little strong I try and it usually fails but my goal is to one day listen to them without tears. I feel the same way about Celine's Las Vegas DVD. I've only listen to the Power Of Love (the opening song) and I was a complete mess. I do want to watch it but I can't and I know I won't for a really long time or ever without shedding some tears.

All to say that in the car while at a drive thru today Jann Arden's "Insensitive" came on the radio and before I even realized that I was listen to it---the tears were flowing hard and fast. I wasn't bawling but more like Demi Moore tears in "Ghost" when she opens the door when she realizes that Sam was not gone yet.