It Will All Get Better With Time

I went out on another date with the same guy the other day. He is a really nice guy and so easy to talk too. He has a really good head on him shoulders. He's been through so much shit in his life and still sees the good in people and how wonderful things can be. We can all learn a lot from him. I will see him again but I already told him that I don't need something too fast, too quick, too soon and he understands that. I'm unsure where this will lead but I'll go with the flow as I enjoy his company. I do know that he likes me and I can feel it by the way he looks at me. It is nice to feel that.

I had to call the ex today. I won't go into details about it because it will invade his privacy. Nevertheless, it does affect us and I told him and he seemed to understand. I did ask him how he was doing and how the training for the bodybuilding was going and he said that he had to stop because he injured his leg. I do feel bad for him and I really hope tries to do a competition some day. I asked him how he was and he said getting better and I heard him choke on his words on the other end of the line. I told him that I still think of him and hope we can talk soon and that he shouldn't be sad as this is good that we can talk a little. That is really all that was said. I asked him about the tattoo he got (he didn't ask how I knew as I can imagine he knew) and he said he got strength written on him forearm and that people won't really be able to read it. I hope he looks at it everyday and gets inspired by it. He asked me no questions and that was it. It was really good to speak to him.

Now this may not be so good but I had to do it. I saw a video on Youtube and I just had to send it to him. I wrote to him that I know I'll always have his heart and that I'll never desert him like everyone else has done in his life---no matter how he tries to ignore me and push me away. He needs to know that someone from his past cares for him and wants him to be happy and I do. This is NOT self serving as I want us to try and be friends of some kind. I just want him to try and communicate to me and subside the misery and pain we both feel as I feel that I can't truly move on feeling this way.