I'm feeling that I'm getting there. What usually happens to me is that I start thinking different things in my head that makes me believe that what I know is true and I don't just say it because that is what I should say---I'm believing what I'm saying and thinking.. My head space is good lately. I'm dealing with things slowly and time does help. People say that having other things to occupy your time is a good thing and I agree. Some have told me that I should meet new guys and that has helped but they all don't seem to quite fit in some way or another. All really nice guys but the gut tells me that it isn't all right. Obviously, I can't help but compare them to the EX. However, what they all possess that the EX didn't--the ability to have a long conversation and hold up more then their end of it. That attribute always sucks me in and I sit in front of them thinking---WOW guys actually do talk. Having said that, after a date or two they all seem to not possess something I like. That isn't their fault at all but it is just me.
This guy that I met over the weekend and NYC are the closes so far to really interest me. However, distance is a problem with NYC and "Ernie (the new guy) has issues and qualities that are so very similar to the EX but is so easy to converse with that how can you not like him--plus adorably cute, dirty and sweet. I will see him again sooner then later.
Having said all this, you can see that the EX is never too far from my thoughts and perhaps Ernie is too like the EX for me to not think of the EX. Confusing thought but welcome to a bit of my mind.
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