Meli-Melo

I had a conversation with a friend yesterday which really didn't tell me anything I didn't know but the matter in which she explained it to me and informed me of what I was doing--made me think---OK enough.

Basically, I need to move on and just stop.  Stop it all now because only I can.  Nothing new---I know but her explaining to me that me behaving like this prevents me to feel the love that I need and want.  The kind that I deserve and the kind I won't find if I don't just stop.  I don't want to be talking about what has happened to me these last few months---over and over again for years to come.  

Therefore, that is it for me.  I'm checked out of feeling unlovable and looking for love in people that are not right for me but who aren't in their own good space to give me what I need. Harder then I make it look but really...come on...if he doesn't care...then why should I since I didn't do anything wrong.  Roles should be reversed here.

All to say that this new guy may be the one or may be the one that can help me move on and see I deserve better and can get better if I stop putting up with the bullshit that I used to.