Cross Your Fingers

So, I'm about to do something that I really don't want to do because I know it is going to send me into a really bad tail spin.  This may affect me for a a while to come but I don't really have an option here.  I've been procrastinating about it for about 5 days now but I have to do this.  It really isn't as dramatic as I make it out to be but I'm more worried of how I will feel after all is said and done.

Having said all, another thing on my mind is the new guy from out of town.  I'm kinda letting go a little because of his schedule and basically I'm losing interest in it all.  Not him but the situation and the uncertainty of his near future.  Look, I know there really isn't a "we" here but I feel that I can't put all my eggs in one basket--especially since the basket doesn't know where its going for the next 6 months.

Also, I've met a few of guys that interest me.  I'm interested in getting to know them.  Two of them in particular but we'll see how it goes.  One I know has potential and the other one is up in the air but the communication line is open.  We'll see what happens with everything---he new guy, the 2 guys that I'm getting to know and even the EX.  All of this needs to settle until I'm ready to devote myself to one person---one that I like and trust implicitly.