Just A Little Bit

The weather this long weekend sucked and it totally matched my mood---pathetic fallacy at its best.  I feel that I'm stagnant at not really going anywhere.  I even thought today that this summer is going to be a long one if this is how things are going to be. People would kill to have the entire summer off and here I am complaining that I am not really looking forward to it.

I do have a few theories about how I'm feeling but for the moment I'm not all that certain.  One thing that I know I am sure of is that (this may sound conceded but indulge me a little).  Is it that hard to get some attention when you are out from guys that you actually really want their attention?  I do get attention but after a few minutes with these hot guys, I'm like----no thank you and I need to move on tout de suite.  

Also,  I have friends that say that I need to lower my standards and go with the good-looking guys but I feel that I'm just doing it for the sake of doing it.  Plus, it is too easy.  I've never done easy and I won't.  I'd rather go home alone and than settle---which I do.  Having said all this, my mind isn't there right now and neither is my heart.  The main thought that creep into my mind a lot this weekend was---will I ever be?