I've been a little blah lately and we can over analyze it until the cows come home but basically I feel that my life is on pause and I can't seem to unpause it. I move forward, meet people and do my daily things but I can't seem to move on. It feels that I'm waiting---just waiting. For what??? Maybe for something or someone fun to happen, the ex and I to....(who knows), school to finish yet dreading the summer, a trip, a better body...who knows.
I'm a pretty good self-analyzer but this is really starting to get to me as I don't like this feeling. Plus, if I really give it some thought---I start to really worry, feel the anxiety start up and the sadness creeping back in. I haven't felt that way in a really long time but I feel it coming and I think to myself---stop it from happening but I can't.
I really can't but feel that these feelings coming are in a strong correlation of the lull that I am in. They go hand in hand. Which one brings on the other? I'm not certain but I don't want both because it takes me awhile to get over it and to be back to my "normal" state. As normal as I have been for these last 6 months.
This great song is what I'm unfortunately listen to---which doesn't really scream fun :) There isn't a meaning behind it so calm down---just a great voice and a piano--which I love.
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